Making Contact


Its been a while since I've written on here, but nothing really much has changed. Everything's still pretty quiet. My father's a colossal jerk, that'll never change I'm sorry to say, but I still choose to not be in touch with him.

Nor will I ever forgive him for what he put my mom through.

I've been mostly inhabiting Facebook and Twitter here lately, Facebook mostly for playing games.

Twitter's pretty cool, I use it to keep in touch with my friends, and the celebrities I follow are cool :) Still wish Keanu had one, or JRM had one.

There are some people who are really fortunate to get a response from a famous person, and that's awesome, but I never do.

But it's okay.

When someone tweets something, I'll be supportive, in an attempt to be nice, you know? 'Cause people deserve respect, both us regular folk and the famous folk.

There's one girl who crows about the fact she got one almost a thousand times a day, and that's fine. Every few minutes she's tweeting this person over and over and over, where I'd only do it the one time.

And she can't understand why I'm not concerned about it.

A while back it would have torn me up to pieces, but I'm trying to see the bigger picture, be grateful for what I do have, and not envious for what I don't.


Anybody who has a Twitter page and wants to add me they can, the name's the same as on LJ. I know I should have thought up something different, but this has served me well for a long time. :)

I know I should be asleep right now, but caffeine will do that to you. Its my fuel, practically my blood.

The song I'm listening to is awesome, Eddie McClintock tweeted about it, its the same band that did the song Passive for Constantine. :)
  • Current Music
    A Perfect Circle - Pet

It's been a long time....'s been ages since I wrote on here. Things have improved, I've gotten a lot of the bills paid off, still a few left to come, but I'm taking care of stuff as I go. Nobody can say that I'm not tryin'.

Still miss Mom TONS. That'll never ever change. I choose to not have anything to do with my father.

He wasn't there for Mom when she needed him..wasn't there for us.

Why should I be there for him?

I know, as a Christian I'm supposed to forgive and forget...but some damn grudges die hard.

Other than taking care of house stuff I've been downloading tunes, tweeting up a ruckus, and writing, especially a fic my friend Deb's been betaing for me.

I'll be posting it on here in just a minute, the first chapter anyway.

I hope people like what they read, this is one story that's really involved me, one character that's spoken the loudest in my imagination.

Writing kinda helps you get your feelings out. It's helped me A LOT.

I got DSL now instead of Dial-Up...fixed it all by myself...

I got frustrated at the technician who was SUPPOSED to help me, didn't really give me much help at all, telling me what I found was wrong, her way was the right way.

Ended up using up ALL my cell phone minutes. UGH.

Its amazing that someone with a foreign accent, when they're on the telephone, they absolutely positively CANNOT understand a Southern accent.

Like the guy in Sweet Home Alabama said; "I may talk slow but I ain't stupid."

On the dating front...things are still nonexistent. Although I have gotten looked at by a couple of really cute guys, to whom I returned said look.

Looking never hurts.

Somedays I worry I'll die alone, others..I say who cares if I'm single? I'm cool regardless.

I'm avoiding going to church tomorrow, because this one old dude has been really hacking on me for some dumb reason.

He doesn't get why I'm not gallivanting from here and there, why I'm either at home or in town, saying "You need to travel."

He first started off with the words "I'm going to get in your business."

I thought "Oh hell...what now?"

I live my life simply and quietly. I'm bashful. I have a pronounced accent...some people who know me will tell you I don't speak very loud.

I'm not a little tiny person, nor am I enormous. I fit somewhere in the middle of the line.

At least I look like a woman, you know?

Sometimes I have a lot to say, sometimes I say nothing at all.

If people like me, great, if not, it's okay. I'm always going to be myself, and I'm not going to change to please anyone.

God and Mom made me, and they don't make junk.

I'll do the best with what I got, with the card I've been dealt.

That's all anyone could ever do.
  • Current Music
    Joey Mcintyre "Mrs. Callahan"

Early Morning...

Man...there's NOTHING on tv early in the morning..although there was something interesting on the History Channel where these people did a 3D mockup off the Shroud of Turin to show what Jesus'd really look like. That was cool.

Everything's been going well here, it's still bloody difficult w/o Mom here. My brother's bosses and co-workers were taking him back and forth to work, the going to is still fine, but the lady complained about the coming back, intimating almost that I couldn't be bothered to fetch him.

My car's in the bloody shop for one thing!

So I walked from my house ALL the way down to where he is, he works over in the next town, it's not like a TOWN but like one of those inbetween ones.

Took the White Album w/me, because you've gotta have tunes. The two times I've gone down there, people have given us rides home. So it's worked out. But I'll be danged if that woman's gonna succeed and make me look bad.

I have a real independent streak, so did Mom, I'm going to do the best I can to get things done on my own, when I need help I'll ask for it. Plus I'm an Aries...we're stubborn. But sometimes you've GOT to be! You know?

Watched WM26 w/my brother, it'd been a long time since I watched anything like that, but it was cool, he's really trying to share his stuff w/me, although I can't strongarm him to watch my stuff. Monty Python, maybe...Burn Notice, yes, Beatles, definite, Tudors..NO...


I've pretty near got the bills all caught up, we owe the funeral lady a thousand plus for the rest of Mom's expenses, Dad was supposed to step up, of course he DIDN'T. But Matt and I told her we were good for it from the beginning even if it was just little bits at a time.

We're going to get her a really pretty headstone, I'm going to see if I can get the poem I wrote for her on there, the one called "Hero", because she IS my hero, always has been and always will be. It should still be here but WAY back in the entries. I might post it again.

Writing's going pretty good, I've got a little JRM/OFC spy story I'm writing, a friend of mine's my Beta, plus the Beatle saga I'm writing for my Yahoo group. I bought the Anthology on DVD so that's helping the research.

Does anybody know good bands/songs to look for on I Tunes? I'm always looking for good stuff.

Jessie, THANKS MUCH for the birthday card! That was really sweet of you! I sent you an email to say thanks also.

Anyone who has Twitter, you're welcome to friend me, same as here, I'll happily return it. New friends are terrific :)

I wish I'd remembered to plug the battery in for the laptop because I've got to go do laundry in a couple of hours. But I didn't. A book'll do just fine :)
  • Current Music
    Jonathan Rhys Meyers - Tumbling Down