I got this from Raven, and my outcome's funny because I HAVE an Egyptian tattoo. Egypt's just cool, I've always thought so.






With your love to the history and everything related to ancient times we recommend you an Egyptian tattoo design. The ancient Egyptian obsession with the afterlife is also quite intriguing, filled with magical amulets like the Ankh and the scarab. From Gods, Goddesses and pharaohs, to records made in fanciful hieroglyphics, there's so much about ancient times. The sheer richness of Egyptian society has never quite been laid to rest, because so much of modern society is rooted in it.


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That's about how I've felt these past few days. WHEW! We've been trying to get things ready for Christmas for one thing.

Mom just finished her second round of the new chemo, and we found out her tumor markers went WAY high up, nobody knows why yet. Hopefully they've come down since she's started the medicine, hopefully they come WAY down. There's a possibility she may have to have radiation too. Anything that will help..PLEASE let it help, you know?

Oh! I was on the radio! There's a local(meaning Knoxville) station here that plays eighties music on Fridays, and they take requests. I called in for the Huey Lewis song from Back to the Future, and they recorded me! After they played the song, they have an ad for the station where it has clips from the first BTTF in it. So it all fit. :)

I know I don't post on here as often as I should, but I'm going to remedy that. I think 2010 is going to be a great year for everybody here, and everybody everywhere. Gotta have hope you know? I do, in all things, and I try to keep it even when I'm down in the dumps.

Jessie, in case I haven't told you, congrats on Steve, he sounds like a keeper. I'm sorry for not sending you the rest of that fic yet, but I'll get it wrapped up here REAL soon.

MK- Congrats on Nano. That's terrific:)

I'll do better on posting on everyone's LJs, even if it's just a :) you'll hear back from me in some fashion.

Raven, you've got a LJmail message from me, hopefully it went through.

Other than real life stuff, I've been writing. I've got a Beatles four-story saga going, that of yours Jess, plus a BTTF fic I'm working on. It's funny switching the mindset, going from two twentysomething English girls as the OFCs, to a fourteen year old American, when you're a thirtysomething like me. WEIRD. But fun. Especially an adventure when you're trying to avoid the Mary Sues.

Overall, I think things will be alright in the end. I really do. Hope things go great for you guys out there too.

I'm on Twitter if anyone wants to add me, the name's the same as you see here. Why change something that you know works, right? LOL. But anyone's welcome. Same as on here. The more friends, the better :)

Many thanks to caitcupcake for my Marty icon.

I was in college and my professor had gotten a new computer, leaving me in charge to figure it out. I'd used computers in the past so that part wasn't new to me, but when I got on the Web, I was proud I figured it out on my own, didn't have to have any help. :)

Can anyone out there make a banner for me? I'd be tickled to pieces, 'cause these three guys I'm super fond of.

Whatever text would work is great, I'll leave it open. A rock and roll vibe'd be cool.

Thanks ahead of time.

( HERETHEYARE )

Today was a interesting day, we went to Mom's doctor over in Knoxville. He restarted the new chemo she's on, something called Xeloda, which is a stronger version of one she's taken in the past, one that was proven to work. The other she'd been on stalled out, causing her chemo markers to jump from 12 (where they'd been not too long ago) to 45! Which is MAJORLY not good. She asked him would this new medicine keep the cancer at bay like the previous did, and he said no, it might just cure it. Which would ROCK! That's what I've been praying for, that's where my head and my heart's been at. Sometimes my prayers are more like mantras cause it's the same over and over and over, but God's been listening. I really believe that.

The guy we rode with up there was sweet, a little scattered but sweet. The other passenger however wasn't. She was RUDE. Didn't even speak to Mom and me. What Mom said was right, you're supposed to acknowledge people even if you don't talk to them the whole time, at least acknowledge the person exists. I try to do that in the store too, I'll smile at you, even if you don't return it, I'll still smile.

She's going to go get her tattoo tomorrow, the same bloke who did mine's doing it. He's taken three months to get around to the thing which is goofy, but I'm hoping it turns out cool.

While she's doing that, I'm going to the library, she wants me to try downloading tunes for her on her Mp3 player. Which I'll be glad to do, 'cause she's a rock and roll person like me, 'specially the cats who did Sweet Home Alabama. I wish I could find the song ZZ Top did for BTTF 3, I always liked that.I've got a BTSB song I'm listening to now. DON'T LAUGH.

The MJF song I have is so sweet, its from Light of Day, one of his movies I've NOT seen yet. Sad I know. But that's the beauty of Walmart.com, I can get all the MJF and Keanu movies I want. Thanks to my handy-dandy gift card thingie.

I'm downloading a lot of tunes from the eighties, stuff I remember from when I was a kid many moons ago. Mom asked me what I wanted for Christmas and when I told her, she goes don't buy everything for yourself, let some of us other people do. I DO know I want either one of MJF's books. I would say Michael Palin, but I cheat by reading them at his website. It's all good though.

Thanks to everyone who's read my scribblings on here, I'm just a rookie writer, but I've love it ever since I was a kid, my first story was about werewolves.

Cheers to everyone out there's who's doing Nano, I wish I could.

Take care :)

Oh and whoever it was that made my Marty/Jennifer icon, you rock. I've always loved that his girlfriend in BTTF had my name.

I still love this guy :) Especially listening to him imitate Cheech Marin on the blooper reel for Back to the Future.

Total keeper.

MJF and Keanu are the BEST actors EVER.

Yes, I do believe in soulmates. I believe the man that I'm meant to be with is out there. We're just having a hard time locating each other..LOL.

I've always been a hopeful romantic rather than a hopeless one. Like Keanu's character Paul in the movie A Walk in the Clouds says: "I believe there's a perfect person for everyone. Someone who'll love you no matter what."

Today's turned out to be the ABSOLUTE worst day. Everything was fine early on, but within the last few minutes it's turned unbearable.

My brother does everything he can to get me in trouble, and he succeeds 99 percent of the time, turning my Mom against me every chance he gets.

I was down here fighting with my Twitter account while they were upstairs, she asked me to get something for her, which I did. Then my brother raised a big ruckus when something else she needed didn't turn up right away, he goes and hisses the word "Useless" at me, knowing it upsets me when he does.

Mom depends on me to do things around here, there are a lot of things she's not able to do, because of having to deal with chemo and stuff. I do my best, but granted I could do a lot better.

My brother's under the belief that he doesn't have to do a damn thing once he comes home from work, 'specially on the weekend, and lords the fact that he has money and I don't over me every chance he gets.

Buys my mom stuff, and gets angry when I try to get her something too. He's told me on occasions that he hates me and wishes I wasn't around.

I wish I could be like my character in the story I'm posting on here, just up and leave. But I can't.

I know I'm needed and depended on, but some days are just not worth waking up for.

People at my church adore my brother, people on the street are the same, but the church people are the worst, barely recognizing I even exist. Even when I say hello to one, they say "where's your brother?"

I wanna scream at the top of my lungs that "hey! I'm here too! I'm just as good as he is!" But I can't.

He'll tell Mom all sorts of nonsense, making up stuff that I supposedly do to him, knowing it's a lie, and she'll believe it.

I wound up getting called a bitch just now, simply for trying to get my brother to back off.

I'm learning to cope being invisible to the outside world, but it's hard to deal with being invisible in your own family.

My brother goes on and on about things he likes, such as WWE and NASCAR, my mom has her things she likes, but the minute anything I like comes up, such as Keanu Reeves for example, he makes fun of me for it, did so once in the video store.

It embarassed me to death. Now I don't say anything. Keep things to myself. Buy things for myself on my own.

I get told I'm "obsessive" over things. Which is not true.

Days like this are really hard. A blowup can happen, usually resulting in me crying, like I'm doing as I'm writing this. Then when I'm around them later, it's like nothing ever happened.

I can't deal with that. I guess I'm too sensitive. God knows that's cost me friends.

I don't know what else to do, it'll be best if I just go on about my business, not make any effort to talk. Only answer when I'm spoken to.

The Limp Bizkit song Rearranged fits how I am now perfectly.

I'd type the words but I don't wanna drag anyone's flists out.

Self-preservation is a hard road to follow.

Recently Occamsrazor brought something to my attention. I haven't been posting anything personal lately. The story you see is one I'm writing for a friend of mine's website.

My life's a fairly quiet one. I don't go out clubbing, I really don't go out anywhere hardly.

Anywhere that doesn't have the words "doctor" and "hospital" involved that is.

Since 2003, my mother's been battling cancer. She's currently in her fifth run of taking chemo. She's also going to have to be on chemo for the rest of her life.

That's where my focus, my priority is. The times I spend on here are usually late at night, when everyone's asleep. And that plays against me sometimes, because I'm usually online alone.

I'm happy to say I've made quite a few friends through the fandoms I've been a part of. And unfortunately have lost some as well. Everyone who I've had a chance to come in contact with, I've still got love in my heart for all of you. Even if you don't have love for me.

And just because I may not answer all the time on my flist, I do read everything that's posted. I just don't have anything illuminating to say sometimes.

Now, at the age of 31(which I still can't believe I am, LOL) I'd like to think I've improved as a person. Everyone makes mistakes, everyone has their faults, God knows I've done and had many of my own. But I've always got hope deep down that things will get better. That things will work out.

I'm basically an eternal optimist. Or at least I try to be.

As far as relationships go, I'm still lacking in that department. Have been for a really long time now. Or as my Mom told me "Prince Charming doesn't make house calls." Boy it'd be great though, wouldn't it? *chuckles* The dating pool here where I live is small. Very very small. Guys are either too young or WAY too old. But I'm not as naive as I once was.

I can actually speak to a guy and finish a sentence without turning twenty shades of red(I may still do it on the inside though). Every day I get better, every day I improve.

Most of the folks I went to school with are married off, I'm still not. And that's okay. I would like to get married one day, have the kids, the husband, the white picket fence. I've got the dogs already! :) See? I'm getting there. Just got it all backwards.

If fate has it in the cards for me to be alone, that's alright too. My life can still have meaning no matter what.

To the folks I knew in high school - I wish I could be the me that I've become when I knew y'all than the me that I was.

It sounds weird but hopefully you guys see where I'm coming from.

My people I knew on Yahoo, the WWE people, I loved you guys to pieces. Still do deep down. I'll always remember the conferences we had..the silly things we all talked about.

The peeps of LJ, from Beatles to Monty Python to Keanu and onward..you guys ROCK!

I wish loads of happiness for everybody everywhere. :)

I got a tattoo!



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